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Wednesday, May 06, 2009
im here again ... heh....
woke up today with my eyes sore and got a flu ... argh .... i needa go work no matter wad as my college is on MC ... and im still under the probation ... hope this flu wont go from bad to worse ...
Wakie in the mornin 1st thing i took my HP and see if darlin replied me anot ... but in vain ... she didnt .. =/ hence i smsed her mornin greeting again ... but yet to get her reply ... =(
till noon ard 2+ then got her reply saying she is having fun in school .. wonder what is she doin too heh ... and guess she nv went home last nite too ... oh well .. if she is having fun ... i guess i wont ask much and let her have her fun with her frenz ... as i told myself not to be a spoilspot again ... but ... darlin i miss u ... i need u .... upon seeing ur msn nick " i cannot see whats infront.. where is my guide " .. i so wanna tell u that ... let me be ur guide ... and lead u to a happy ending .. but i know ... i have not prove to have done my part ... i will work hard on it ... darlin ...hope u can wait till i succeed and come back into my arms ....
ogee ... i needa go work soon le ...
missya darlin ... i really do ....
Hi my long lost blog... till now.. i wonder if any1 is still reading this blog... im sorry blog... i cant really get a person to be my listening ear ... so here i am to tell u...
Its been awhile since Ellen broke up with me .... im so lost .... so so very lost...and even cried inside my pillows almost everysingle nite till now ... i know... i understand deep inside my heart that its totally my fault to result in this stage ...for u to suffer 3 years of my nonsense ... for my lack of will to fight for a better future for us both ... for my thinking of everything will be alright when it aint goin the right way at all ... and the bottom line is that ... im all messed up...and im the culprit for all the bad times we got.. i must admit that.... but im really changing ..
i dont know if its too late to change and try and get her back in my arms.... but.. i will try ... i cant fail ... i really really cant fail ... as i really think im only left with 1 and only slim chance left....and i dont know if u are willing to wait for me or not ... i really do not know ...
As from what i see now ... u seem so happy with ur friends and im kinna neglected ... mayb its ur form of style that wants me to concentrate on the plan.. but darlin ... my heart really hurts.. to u ,we might be still frenz and u wont needa treat me like some1 special ... but to me ... u are always the some1 special and gonna be my darlin forever deep inside my heart .. and i dont think any1 can replace u inside my heart ... well u might think by time passes or when i meet some1 new things might change... to me ... it will nv change ... i will wait for u ...
I know u have many suitors... and u have been goin out and bein closer and closer to them ... i know im in no stand to stop u nor talk bad things abt them as i dont know them ... but my heart really hurts deeply ... on the night out when i saw u in cyclone ... watching u putting ur hands on to the guy's face ( mayb u are playing / cold ) but when he grabs ur hands ... my heart shattered ... and eyes were brim with tears ... m trying to hold them .... and the next moment seeing another suitor with his arms ard ur waist .... [i know it might be the words i said to u way back in time as in " if u see other gals clinging on me or hugging me.. darling dont get jealous oh .. " ( well m now very very very very very very very regretful for saying this ...) ] My heart completely got ripped apart .. i knew i couldnt take it any more .. as if i stay inside for a min more ... i will burst out in tears and i wouldnt want u to see that ...as it will spoil ur mood since u are like having fun with ur frenz ...
im really sorry if im a spoilspot for the nite ... im sorry ... but ... i really cant bare to see it ... that is y i went out of cyclone and went to a spot where there is no 1 and banged my fists / head onto the walls to try to venge some anger / sorrow out with my tears running down my face ( till now i can still see the bruises on my hands )... im sorry for being this weak ... im sorry ... i just ..... i just .... really couldnt bare to see the sight of it...
oh well here it goes again ... heh... guess i aint no manly at all ... tears rolling down face like it always used to be when i hide myself in my pillows ... heh guess the sky is with me tonite .. its gonna "cry" too ...
guess i should stop here ... gdnite all ...
missya darling ... i really do ... T_T
Darling... here is a short poem from me to u ...hope u like it ...
i want to save in my hands the speed of your walk,
and how we took turns
to catch up, slow down, slipping into
a common pace.
Monday, July 07, 2008
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Wednesday, April 02, 2008
WOooo last week celebrated honey's 21st bday at East Coast Chalet .
Prepreations started a week b4 when we both sat down and discussed wad we wanna buy and prepare on the 3 days of chalet eheh. Honey even wanna bring down some of her Dolls at hm to the chalet to accompany her to slp during the nite lol =X
Luckily honey de illness was recovered b4 the chalet. Eheh if not she will be very disappointed.
On the 1st day of Chalet 28th March. WOooo tiring day ... Coz friends working and we gotta carry the stuffs down ourselves eheh. Wokeup ard 8+ to make sure everything is in order and check the foodstuffs b4 we head down. We reached East coast at ard 2.15pm and checked in then borrowed a trolley to push our stuffs + BBQ pit over to our room =D
After we reached the ROom OMG the lock sucks lol took us quite sometime to make it open .. then we went in to unload our stuffs then put the cake into the fridge and all other stuffs all into the fridge and the foam boxes and also prepare the drinks into the dispenser. After tat i went down to Marine Parade Coldstorage to buy more food and drinks and ice for that nite =D
By the time i finish buying and reached back to chalet .. its ard 5+pm then darlin de friends called her told her that they are reaching soon. so darling asked me to start the fire and prepare soem food for her friends eheh so i started the fire and wow her friends really came in time eheh as the BBQ pit is ready her friends are here eheh.
Soon then her friends came down grp by grp till ard 8+pm most of her friends and family are there and the most busy time have come to me to run ard to BBQ and deep fry some of the food in the kitchen eheh. till ard 11pm we brought out the cake from Awfully Choclate and started take pics , sing her bday song and cut the cake. omg the cake was good ! lol
Till ard 12am most of her friends left and left honey and me and some of her friends we chitchatted and ard like 4am we went to rest.
On the 2nd day of chalet started , honey and jessie went to grab some breakfast from the cafe while ciaying and ryhan went to mac. Then Sonny came down with honey de jiemei in the noon came down chitchatted till late afternoon then they gotta go coz soony needa head to another bday gal's event.
After tat mingshun and gang came lol then we chitchatted and Started the BBQ eheh. till evenin moi brother and friends came. then moi bro brought more food then i went to buy more ice and charcole with mingshun.When we back boss , song , ade , pk they all came.
Then got drinks from them Argh .. honey also abit drunk lol =X might be some alcohol drinks and kaylong driving skills by her friend lol. Ard 1am plus plus my bro and gang left the chalet. Then We borrowed Blades from ju and ogk to blade to 7-11 to get more drinks for the remainder boss , pk . ogk , ade , ju , ami . Woah! honey improved le she actually can blade on herself from 7-11 and back to chalet ^clap*clap* eheh then boss , pk , ade , ogk , ju , me , honey , ami drank till 6+am then they left. Luckily ogk and ju stayed for awhile to help us clear and carry things out to take a cab back if not really donno how to carry lol.
HAPPY 21ST BDAY HONEY ~~~ LUVYA ~~~ MMmmmmmmmmmmmUUUUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaKKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkkkkkZZZZZZzzzzzz
Thursday, December 27, 2007
WOOoooo xmas over le ~~~
YEAH~~~ ty honey for the cloth u bought moi ~~ I LOVE IT ~~ hurhur
then wore to work and moi colleges even praise its nice ~~
muackz muackz ~~
during the past few weeks had watch many movies with honey the best was still Alvin and the chipmunks hurhur cute cute nitemare kid Theodor... lol
on Xmas eve i tooked leave from work then went out with honey to watch national treasure~~ quite nice movie though ~~~
then we went to Ju Ju to eat our dinner OMG they actually gave us presents lol . its a mini ver. of the tea/coffee pot like those we see at Mcdonalds hurhur ~
after our dinner we went walk ard and finally went to meet Mingshun and gang at International Building For Ktv ~~~ hurhur all went crazy after the clock struck 12.. lmao ...
and finally we went to Thompson for some supper at the crispy prata hse B4 we head back home to unwarp our presents ~~ hurhur love the smiling face of honey when she opens her present~~ eheh
kisskiss ~~
Love ya honey ~~
muackz
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
heh was too bz recently coz got a new job as a draftsman and trying to get used to it as also its been a very long time since i got a day job ... heh
honey and i seems to getting less tiem to chat ard coz of the commitments to work and sch as her sch sem started too hehe but we still do go out during weekends eheheh
went to get her cloths ... shop shop ... movies ~~ OH OH last week we watched STARDUST !~! OMG great show and nice ~~ eheh 1st time honey watches scific shows and says nice ... really really very seldom ... eheheh . and we are plannin for taiwan trip in the year end ... hope we will get our journey ... *Prays* ...
kk will update when i have time ... laters peeps ~ and .. loveya honey ~ muakz
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
zhu tou okin currently busy adapting his new work and life. Will not be updating his blog so soon. Please stay tune ^^v